Hello again dear reader,
Have you ever thought about how many thoughts you have but will never again remember?
They're in there somewhere, probably. But to recall a thought we usually need something to connect it. If we have some thought we might never be able to dig it up again.
Journaling is a nice way to combat this I've found, and more recently blogging. But even doing this once-daily thing isn't enough to capture all the thoughts in my mind. It feels like ages ago that today started. Admittedly, it is past midnight and thus technically the 4th of April but I've written most of these around midnight anyway.
I remember having so many thoughts earlier in the day. Of course I was still working on the general physics project but after that I got my student ID picture taken in the library. I didn't like the way my hair looked but I only remembered that after I had asked the receptionist and didn't want to be rude so I went through with having my picture taken. Of course, I was not a fan of the picture, and spent the next while filled with regret over this, especially since it's quite hard to change your student ID photo.
Regret is probably one of the worst feelings. One of my greatest fears is lying on my deathbed filled with regret. On a smaller scale though, I tend to focus a large amount of mental attention on things I regret.
I suppose it makes sense from a certain perspective - the idea behind it is if you intensely pick through what led to each of your regrets after they happen it'll reduce the frequency of things you regret.
Of course, this line of logic makes the assumptions both that thinking more about your regrets can reduce the frequency of them (which fails with respect to certain social regrets) and that reducing the frequency of regrets is something that should be optimized for.
Try telling that to a brain, huh?